There are times when I look back at my past and see things that I could have done significantly better. And it becomes more obvious to me the more experience in life I get. At times like those I feel so relieved that I'm no longer that inexperienced, naive and incompatible with reality as I was back then. Sometimes people get sad that after becoming adult they can never truly return to that blissful childhood of no responsibilities and no worries. Some of them try really hard to ignore that eventuality and force themselves to 'return'. It makes me somewhat sad, like some piano pieces. After learning something I can no longer pretend that it doesn't exist.
Your response turned out to be the way I feared it might be. Though I still have some hope since you've done some awakening once - might be able to do that again. But I won't be making any more attempts to explain unless directly asked. Some things person can only understand on it's own. Granted there is a wish to do so.
So I suggest we drop any essential (for me) discussions until then.
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